In the morning, the rising sun lights a flame of purpose inside of you. Embrace the day with open arms. Every moment is a gift and every sunrise is a chance for a new beginning. [Music]
Since about a year and a half ago, mornings have been the saddest time of the day. I woke up feeling anxious and asked myself why I was getting up. Luckily that has changed, but sometimes it’s not easy to get back on track. I struggled with depression and anxiety for about 3-4 years, then a year passed and I went back to work again. Isn’t it crazy how the mind can get in the way of a normal life? I was literally scared to go to the gym, which is my happy place. I had a panic attack on the way there and it got so bad that I couldn’t work and I didn’t want to talk to people or go out. I just wasn’t me anymore. My husband helped me get help because there was nothing I could do at that point. On my own, I was so
Unlike me, I got help and it took time as always. And I still have to remember that it took years to get to a breaking point and it takes years to heal. But I am on my way to recovery. The decision to go to a psychiatrist for about 3 months was the best decision, even though I was very scared to go there. But to be honest, I was scared of everything. I was not that person at all and I just wanted to be myself again. Now I am trying to go back to being a bit edgier and be kind to myself. I am not a machine, I just tighten a screw or push a button and that’s it. That would be nice, but it’s not. My days are mostly pretty good now, but of course there are sad days. That’s okay. It’s normal in nature. It’s not all sunshine and butterflies. There are storms and heavy rain too. Seasons
That’s nature
I’m not back in the gym yet but I’m working on myself to get there
First I focused on getting a healthy mindset and living a life with work I love and I’ve achieved that
Now I’m trying to focus more on healthy eating
I’m not a patient person and I’m also a perfectionist
Yes it will take a while to lose those extra pounds but I will get there
The reason I haven’t been in videos is because I hate seeing myself now and it takes me so long to admit it in public
But because of you I don’t feel alone anymore
So I decided to open up and talk about personal things and I don’t think I’m alone
Everyone has some kind of burden
I love the little community we’ve created
Thank you for being kind to me and everyone else
Thank you for the comments and
Messages
I hope you all have a good time and
May the sunshine in the morning remind us of the shining love and power of nature
May this light be with us all day
